I'm pretty sure my body hates me. I'm not sure if it's the stress, what I'm eating, the muscle mass I am gaining or all three, but I can't seem to break out of the 215 range. I went vegetarian at the beginning of this month in order to support my husband and to try to kick start my body. I have been eating mostly fruits and veggies all month. Yet after I lost most of my holiday weight I can't seem to get the scale moving again. It's getting frustrating. I guess I need to get rid of all of my snacks. I do love my tortilla chips with lime. Maybe my fat intake has gone up too much. I have been eating more nuts lately since they seem to help keep me full and fuel my workouts after class. I'm just not sure where I am going wrong. I work out 3-5 times a week for at least 30 minutes each time. I know stress can do all kinds of horrible things to a body, but come on! I need to find that one thing, be it a mindset, food or exercise that is going to get me to my goal of 174.
As frustrated as I am, I at least am keeping of track of what I am eating. I still weigh myself every week. I am trying to hold on to these things so I don't give up on myself. Here's hoping that this will get me through this frustrating time!
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Saturday, January 7, 2012
My Weigh In Days.
My husband pointed out to me that I have not stated my weigh in days and how I go about it. He thought it may be a great idea to post it here to let people know.
Well, I weigh myself every Sunday morning, it's literally the second thing I do in the morning. I strip down and step on the scale. I do have a strange thing where I won't watch it while it "thinks". I look straight ahead and think light thoughts. When that number comes up a bunch of thoughts hit me at once, depending on what the number is. If I am down my first thought is woo whoo! Then I start analyzing my week. What did I do to get the scale to move in the right direction? Was I more active this week? Did I eat all my fruits and vegetables? Did I drink water? These, I think, are pretty basic for most of us working on weight. It's what I do when the scale shows a gain that keeps me going.
My first thought is "oh no". Then I analyze for about a second before I put a lock on it. I have found in the past that when I over think about my gains it makes me less successful. I tell myself it is one week, I can recover from this. This is not the end all be all of my weight loss. One week's weight is not going to undue me or the work I have done. Once I step off the scale and finish my morning routine I will allow myself to try to figure out what happened that week. Sometimes it's as simple as I had something really salty the night before or my "aunt flo" is visiting. When it is a little more complicated than that I just keep my mantra up of it's one week, not the end of my life.
It is so important for me to keep up the positives. I am an emotional eater. If I let myself start to feel guilty or too upset I can turn to food. This is not easy, and it's really not easy if you can't stay positive. Celebrate the good and recognize the bad, but don't let the bad get to you. Just admit you made a mistake and move on.
That is my Sunday morning weigh in, in a nutshell.
Well, I weigh myself every Sunday morning, it's literally the second thing I do in the morning. I strip down and step on the scale. I do have a strange thing where I won't watch it while it "thinks". I look straight ahead and think light thoughts. When that number comes up a bunch of thoughts hit me at once, depending on what the number is. If I am down my first thought is woo whoo! Then I start analyzing my week. What did I do to get the scale to move in the right direction? Was I more active this week? Did I eat all my fruits and vegetables? Did I drink water? These, I think, are pretty basic for most of us working on weight. It's what I do when the scale shows a gain that keeps me going.
My first thought is "oh no". Then I analyze for about a second before I put a lock on it. I have found in the past that when I over think about my gains it makes me less successful. I tell myself it is one week, I can recover from this. This is not the end all be all of my weight loss. One week's weight is not going to undue me or the work I have done. Once I step off the scale and finish my morning routine I will allow myself to try to figure out what happened that week. Sometimes it's as simple as I had something really salty the night before or my "aunt flo" is visiting. When it is a little more complicated than that I just keep my mantra up of it's one week, not the end of my life.
It is so important for me to keep up the positives. I am an emotional eater. If I let myself start to feel guilty or too upset I can turn to food. This is not easy, and it's really not easy if you can't stay positive. Celebrate the good and recognize the bad, but don't let the bad get to you. Just admit you made a mistake and move on.
That is my Sunday morning weigh in, in a nutshell.
Thursday, January 5, 2012
First Exam
Today is my first exam. I am really kind of stressing about it since I have only have 2 classes so far. Studying is tough after a 10 year break from it. By this time I would have given up on my diet and just devoted myself to eating my stress. This time I am channeling the nervous energy into my studies. This is not as productive as it may sound since my mind tends to wander when I anxious. This is the only way I am going to learn though. I just have to remember that as long as I hold myself accountable and not beat myself up things will be ok.
I am not going to feel guilty about a slip or two in the next couple of weeks. I don't plan on giving up on my diet or my class. I have a great support system and 2 sisters who keep me in check when it comes to the gym. They both reminded me yesterday that the gym is MY time and not to sell myself short on it. Sometimes you need a little kick in the ass to get moving and keep your mind in the right place.
Well, I better get studying!
I am not going to feel guilty about a slip or two in the next couple of weeks. I don't plan on giving up on my diet or my class. I have a great support system and 2 sisters who keep me in check when it comes to the gym. They both reminded me yesterday that the gym is MY time and not to sell myself short on it. Sometimes you need a little kick in the ass to get moving and keep your mind in the right place.
Well, I better get studying!
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
What I ate Jan 3, 2012
Started out with some chex cereal and skim milk this morning with my coffee. For lunch I had 2 eggs with some reduced fat cheddar cheese and hot sauce. I also had a banana in there. For a nice little snack while in class I took a string cheese and a handful of emerald sweet and salty cocoa nuts. When I got home I had an apple. After the gym I had 2 more eggs this time with some green pepper, onion and feta in it, yes more hot sauce. For snack tonight I had my newest favorite cereal, Kellog's Krave. Soooooo good. I am currently drinking some crystal light since for some reason I can't stay full today. Today was a good day for the fruits and veggies. Hopefully tomorrow I can I add some more in there.
First Day of Class
Today I started my newest journey, to become a nurse. I had my first biology class out of 5 that I need before I can apply for the nursing program at my community college. It has been 10 years since I was college and the last time I was there I didn't really care about grades or learning. This time around I am going to do the best I can do. I read the first 5 chapters of my book and was really glad I did. This is a two and half week class that would normally take five to six.
It really goes without saying that I was stressed and nervous. For the past few weeks I have been eating my stress and ignoring it. This week I am trying to channel the nervous energy into other areas instead of eating it. I am going to try to keep things clean when I am not studying. I also plan on taking at least 30 minutes a day for me. That will include gym time since I consider it me time.
The next 2 and half weeks of my life is going to be a whirlwind of biology and studying. I feel sorry for my husband since this pretty much means he is on his own or at the very least has to listen to what I learned in class every day. I don't feel too bad for him since this is for me as well as for him. This is a step I am taking toward our future and making it better.
If there is one thing I have learned in the past couple of years while losing weight, it is that you have to put yourself first. Doesn't matter who comes second as long as you come first. I do expect that when I become a mother that I will put my children first, but there will be at least 30 minutes a day where I am number one. For too long I put others and their desires ahead of mine. I'm not saying that I am selfish or self centered, I am really the opposite of that, but I now recognize the importance of me. Just remember that you can't loose weight if you aren't thinking about you.
It really goes without saying that I was stressed and nervous. For the past few weeks I have been eating my stress and ignoring it. This week I am trying to channel the nervous energy into other areas instead of eating it. I am going to try to keep things clean when I am not studying. I also plan on taking at least 30 minutes a day for me. That will include gym time since I consider it me time.
The next 2 and half weeks of my life is going to be a whirlwind of biology and studying. I feel sorry for my husband since this pretty much means he is on his own or at the very least has to listen to what I learned in class every day. I don't feel too bad for him since this is for me as well as for him. This is a step I am taking toward our future and making it better.
If there is one thing I have learned in the past couple of years while losing weight, it is that you have to put yourself first. Doesn't matter who comes second as long as you come first. I do expect that when I become a mother that I will put my children first, but there will be at least 30 minutes a day where I am number one. For too long I put others and their desires ahead of mine. I'm not saying that I am selfish or self centered, I am really the opposite of that, but I now recognize the importance of me. Just remember that you can't loose weight if you aren't thinking about you.
Monday, January 2, 2012
What I ate Jan 2, 2012
This morning I had rice chex with my 1% milk and coffee. For lunch I had a yogurt once again, Krave cereal with skim milk. Dinner was my most awesome and delicious kung poa veggie! Not sure yet what I will have for my snack tonight. Maybe some more of my wonder godiva chocolates and milk! Life is so much better with some chocolate. Sometimes all you need is a piece to make you happy.
No Meat Day 2
Ok, so day 2 is a little harder than day 1. Breakfast and lunch are a piece of cake compared to dinner. Dinner is really the only time I eat meat. I usually spend about an hour at the gym burning over 300 calories so I crave me some protein. Tonight was pretty hard since I went to the gym with my sister's. We were on the treadmill for 30 minutes then I stretched while they did abs (back is too tight for abs), then we did pull-ups on the assisted pull-up machine. It's been a long time since I did pull ups and I could feel my muscles tearing, so when I got home tonight I wanted some chicken. Instead I made chicken kung poa without the chicken. It came out really great! I probably had about 2 servings of veggies in one bowl! It was satisfying as well. I added a little sour cream to mine to add a little protein to it. I also had a nice handful of nuts when I got home from the gym. The only reason I didn't add tofu to it is because my husband is not crazy about it. He was forced to eat it as child. He is willing to give it a try again as long as I make it taste good. I have never had it before and I have been told that it is pretty flavorless. I will see what I can find to hide it in.
After today I learned that I will probably have to switch to small meals for the month. I don't see how I can not have meat and just do 3 meals a day. I have read that 5-6 small meals a day is better for you, but I just like me a big dinner. I was raised on big family dinners. This is probably something I should reflect on a little. I didn't reach 307 by NOT eating big meals. I am willing to try just about anything to keep the weight off and stay healthy.
The thing I will have to keep in mind this month and every month after, is too stay positive. My sister Kitty is working really hard on this, this year. So far she has been doing great! The weight will come off, it may do it slowly, but it will come off. As long as I keep thinking that it will come off and working towards it, it will happen. One small thing I tell myself is that I am only 1 point away on my BMI to being just plain over weight. This is probably more of a bing thing to say, especially since when I started this my BMI was over 40! It's that one small thing that keep you going on your goals. I will always tell someone to start small. I started small. Walking on the treadmill turned into speed walking which turned into starting to jog which turned into a 5k! I cut out regular soda and drank more water which turned into more veggies, which turned into 90 pounds! You get my point it's a snowball effect. So with this challenge this month I have started out small and by the end of the month I may be eating tofu often and beans. Who knows where this will lead.
After today I learned that I will probably have to switch to small meals for the month. I don't see how I can not have meat and just do 3 meals a day. I have read that 5-6 small meals a day is better for you, but I just like me a big dinner. I was raised on big family dinners. This is probably something I should reflect on a little. I didn't reach 307 by NOT eating big meals. I am willing to try just about anything to keep the weight off and stay healthy.
The thing I will have to keep in mind this month and every month after, is too stay positive. My sister Kitty is working really hard on this, this year. So far she has been doing great! The weight will come off, it may do it slowly, but it will come off. As long as I keep thinking that it will come off and working towards it, it will happen. One small thing I tell myself is that I am only 1 point away on my BMI to being just plain over weight. This is probably more of a bing thing to say, especially since when I started this my BMI was over 40! It's that one small thing that keep you going on your goals. I will always tell someone to start small. I started small. Walking on the treadmill turned into speed walking which turned into starting to jog which turned into a 5k! I cut out regular soda and drank more water which turned into more veggies, which turned into 90 pounds! You get my point it's a snowball effect. So with this challenge this month I have started out small and by the end of the month I may be eating tofu often and beans. Who knows where this will lead.
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